hdfjksorryi have a really hard time explaining how i feel abt this ill try my best!!!!!
what i mean is that idont and will never have control over the pokemon universe, and no matter how hard i wish it to be true leaf will 99.999% never appear again in the games. and ive said it before somewhere that ive loved leaf and green for like so many years already!! and every game that comes out theres less and less hope to see leaf and more and more appearences by red and it honestly?????? makes me depressed???????????? (if you were here when they first showed trace in lgpe you KNOW)
and i. honestly HATE getting my spirits down and stressing and depressing over things that i cant control and cant change no matter how hard i try, so its like a loklfjkdsits like a removing toxic shit from my life kinda move. NOW DONT GET ME WRONG: I FUCKING LOVE POKEMON!!!! POKEMON AINT TOXIC SHIT!!!!!!!I LOVE IT A LOT!!!!!!!! but idont like to depend on gamefreak for my happiness regarding characters(which mean a lot to me in games/stories) SO. instead of being trapped (for lack of better word) in the pokemon universe, where SOMEONE ELSE is deciding whos important, whats canon, whats true and not true, i decided to make my own universe, characters, lore, etc!!!!! so that way I CALL THE FUCKINg SHOTS!!!!!! and theres not someone else halfway across the world who can say “mmmmmmmm nope sorry shes not really important at all no one cares about her sorry thats ur problem”
and i know its pretty darn silly to get so depressed over a fake video game, but i have so much time, energy, and love invested in leaf and green that it honestly??? it feels like theyre mine????? (i know theyre not lol) and when gf like. ignores and dismisses leaf so much it feels like someone taking a character of mine and just. forbidding them to exist kind of. and theres nothing i can do about it. fhjsksim so sorry im bad at explaining this IS HOW I FEEL ABT THIS PARTICULAR SUBJECT
but yeah!!! thats what i mean by being subject to someone elses imagination
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